Preparation for the Insanity program, or Hello, I'm Kim and I'm a fatty

Well, after reading "The Real Me is Thin" and getting drunk and crying my eyes out about what a fatty I am, I've finally had my lightbulb moment that there's nothing anyone can do about it except me.

Two of my friends have done the Insanity workout plan, and have said it's changed their lives. Well, yes, that's all well and good, but they're reasonably fit twentysomething men. Not a podgy thirtysomething woman.

As ever, I'm always up for a challenge, and am due to commence Shaun T's Insanity tomorrow evening.

In preparation, I have done the following:

• Cut right back on drinking and fatty food. These will be a once-a-week treat.
• Hit the gym for an hour a day so the exercise won't be so much of a shock.
• Got the bf on board by saying I'm doing this for me, not because I think he won't love me if I'm fat
• Watched some inspirational videos - if a woman who weighed 265lbs can do it, I can!

I'm feeling better already just for a week in the gym and no alcohol or fatty food. I've tried to make high-protein meals with good carbs for both me and the fella, and they seem to be going down OK. Still can't deal with vegetables, horrible things, but let's take this one step at a time.

Sooooo...the vital statistics, after all that burbling.

• Currently 13st 8lbs (yikes!) and hoping to get to 12st.
• Currently dress size 14/16. Hoping to get to a 12.
• Current self-esteem on floor. Hoping to get some.

I will track everything I do here, not only to get some ranting off my chest but also to try and help inspire other people to do this workout and reap the benefits. As soon as I can I will also add photos :)

Love,

Kim